I Need to Clear a Few Things Up.

Okay, first off, some of you may have noticed that I deactivated my blog the end of last week. I only just reactivated it today. A few things happened over the weekend which caused me to make this quick decision. Before I explain what those things are I am going to tell you about why I started this blog in the first place.

I created this blog when I was pregnant with Logan, I only posted twice and then started up again when Logan was a few months old. The reason I started it was because I enjoy writing, even though sometimes it can be hard to follow. Also, I don't have many people in my life I can talk to or relate to. Plus I just wanted to put my story out there in case anyone else is feeling the same way, they can know there are people out there to talk to that have experienced similar situations. When I was thinking about starting a blog a few friends and family members either didn`t understand or thought it was a dumb idea, that is what kept me from it for so long. I purposely did not share my blog with anyone I know personally or the fact that I went ahead with starting one in the first place. I intended for family and friends to never find or read my blog ever or until I decided to share it. This was not because I say things I shouldn`t or say mean things about anyone but because I did not want to hear or feel judgement for anyone I know personally. When I became more comfortable with my writing and was ready I figured I would share it.

I share many things with my readers before ever I share it with my family and friends, this is no secret. I was comfortable doing so because I had blocked people and never told anyone. Unfortunately this privacy and safe zone I had to speak or vent free of judgement I thought that I had was tore apart on me, I only found this out shortly after I announced that I am pregnant. I don`t feel bad for not sharing with my family first, I felt more comfortable talking about it and venting before I took that step. However, I never got to do so, certain people decided it was their duty to inform my family first.

It has become obvious to be that things need to be cleared up:

1. This pregnancy was in no way planned, I was not happy when I found out. Shocked was what I was feeling because I was on birth control and could not think of a single time I messed it up even slightly. Even though I this happened, whether I like it or not, I did not feel that I needed to have an abortion and end a baby`s life for anyone else`s benefit. That is something I would never consider unless there was anything serious wrong. Again I must must say, I didn`t want to be pregnant. I`m not happy about it but there is no point sitting around feeling sorry for myself, I decided to except the fact that I am expecting ready or not.

2. Obviously I planned on telling my family eventually, I was going to after the holidays. I knew no one was going to be happy about it, they weren`t about Chloe and Logan and won`t ever be for any future children I may have, not matter how many years down the road it is. Nobody had the right to tell anyone before I did, whether I blogged about it or not. 

3. Lastly, If you follow me on social media or read my blog and you choose to judge me or try to mess with my life in any way stop reading and following now. I do not care if you are family, friends or anyone else. As far as I am concerned if you interfere with my life or judgement in your head or out loud you aren`t anything to me and sure aren`t welcome here. I almost let certain people ruin this blog for me, these people know who they are and you should have minded your own business and kept your mouths shut. If you had to say something the mature thing would have been to come to me directly.

Just remember you never look good trying to make someone else look bad.